If you really knew me

If you really knew me you would know that I still bite my fingernails when i am nervous, and that is quite alot. You would know that my favorite thing is sitting in the car, heater on, while its raining, simply listening to it, and talking about life.  If you really knew me that i do care, sorry it doesnt seem like it 24 freaking 7.
You would know that I hate goodbyes but hellos scare me.  You would know that chocolate it my secret addiction.  You would know that I would rather curl up and read a book then go to a party and pretend to have fun.  If you really knew me you would know that i am trying, everday.  You would know that my dreams arent that crazy but they seem insane to me.  You would know that standing here performing in front of people scares the holy crap out of me. You would know that the fact that i tell you anything is a big step. If you knew me at all you would know that i smile alot when i feel like crying.  If you really knew me you would know i sing as loud as i can to the radio when im alone in the car, and i dont care that the people who pull up next to me stare.